Good things that happened today: T cooperated with me when I needed to lay down to nurse a migraineHubs went back to workWe had a slow morning, but it didn't feel bad to only be lightly productive Gratitudes I am grateful for other people starting to realize where my beliefs lieI am grateful for coffee. … Continue reading Nightly routine 7/31 →

Monthly Checkup What happened this month that changed me? Joining a group. Residency. Sitting with my pain. Trying to be an active ally and advocate. Finishing the first book I've read for fun in a long time. What caught me off guard? Talking so much in group and residency. It's like this month something in … Continue reading July Checkup →

Good things about my day T wanted to read before bed, and wanted to read a lot. I want to get this habit started againF was fiesty today, but wanted lots of snuggles and slept for a while by himself this morningF sleeping this morning gave me the chance to have quality time with T, … Continue reading Nightly routine 7/30 →

"Hurt people hurt people." I want to take a minute to explore how I've been feeling today. My feelings are not something that I like to focus on. I've actually been thinking about them, so I want to just make myself work through it. I feel down and low and self absorbed. I feel that … Continue reading Self Absorbed →

Monthly Checkup What happened this month that changed me? Going to physical therapy. I was so scared of it because I've grown so used to being told things are just in my head or I'm overreacting to them, or oversensitive. And then I go in and it's a real problem with a real solution and … Continue reading June Checkup →

I like to sit on my balcony at night. I go through my day and pull out positives. Sometimes this helps me shed light on things that weren't as bad as they seemed at the moment. Sometimes it helps me realize how bad I'm really feeling. I usually say three things I'm grateful for after … Continue reading Late night musing →

This month has been a roller coaster so far, and it will continue to be. I know it will. My depression is getting the better of me. A lot. I started meds. I have mixed feelings about it. "It's like you're running a marathon with a broken leg." My therapist said that after I agreed … Continue reading Broken leg →

I had a realization after my therapy session the other day. Everything I strive so hard to be, some people already see me as. I want to be and work to be compassionate and open-minded, spiritual and wholistic, empathetic and caring. These are all things my therapist has told me she sees as my traits … Continue reading Separating Opinions and Worth →

30. What you've learned from this journaling experience. That I'm really bad at journaling every day. Deeper than that though, I have a lot of work to do on myself. I wish I could make this into a bigger answer, but I don't have the energy to explore it all. I also learned that it … Continue reading Journaling Day 30 →

29. How much do you truly love yourself? Not as much as I would like. I've come to a place where I'm more okay with myself, but I wouldn't say there's a lot of true self love there. I suppose though, I've been in a much better place than a lot of people for most … Continue reading Journaling Day 29 →