From Texassweettea on Pinterest I'll probably try to switch to doing this in the morning. I'd like to build up a good morning routine. I had a conversation with someone recently about something I had shared. It was about wanting to be a loving light to the people around me. She asked me how I … Continue reading Journaling Day 1 →

The other day, my husband told me how proud he is of me for sticking to my gestational diabetes diet. The top picture is almost exactly a year before my current due date. The bottom picture is a few weeks later, in the hospital, trying to figure out why I was in so much pain. … Continue reading What’s driving me →

I saw an article about the guilt another mother feels during her pregnancy after loss. I related to most of it. I started to wonder though if it is different for me because I've decided this is my last pregnancy. There are things I feel guilty about because of the way other loss moms feel … Continue reading Guilt after loss →

I started working on a post last night that was all about how I went from having a great day and feeling so good about where I was at to crying in the shower and wishing I just wasn't doing any of this life stuff right now. I'll clarify, I was not suicidal at that … Continue reading Bumpy road to hopefully heal →

It's the beginning of a new year. I've been starting loads of entries and just not finishing them. Doesn't really matter. This one I need to finish though. This one I need to write. Full disclosure for anyone that happens across this: it is a letter to someone that I need to write, but I … Continue reading Letter I’ll never send →

Christmastime is one of the times of year I am most aware of the fact that I am missing five children. Sometimes it's obvious when it's bothering me. Meaning that thought is very present in my mind in addition to sleeplessness or irritability or whatever else I may be feeling. Sometimes it's not so obvious … Continue reading Tough time of year →

I confessed to my husband that I've been writing here. I quit something similar because of a bad experience. He told me he wasn't surprised that I was still doing something. He could tell. Writing things out is very helpful for me. He was curious if anyone was reading it. To be honest, I don't … Continue reading Writing for me →

I seem to have hit another low. One that being grateful and trying to take care of my health isn't getting me out of. I'm still mostly functioning through it, but it's taking a toll. I'm having a hard time eating right and I'm exhausted, but it's harder to sleep. I do know what triggered … Continue reading Rambling →

Some days I feel like I've strayed from my intention of trying to be more mindful. Other times, I realize many of the things I've been doing to heal are keeping me present. I'm actively keeping the past behind me and the future ahead of me. I'm not focusing on many of the things that … Continue reading Acknowledging my progress →

With my son, I thought that obsessively keeping track of everything, being able to look at new potential milestones, and having hundreds/thousands of people at any given time to ask advice from was a good thing. I thought it was helpful. But I spent so much time reading every single thing written in the articles … Continue reading Pregnancy Apps →