Anything

I saw Blake Lively recently addressing child pornography problems. In her intro for a company, she talked about how she would give her life for her kids and that the limits of what she would do for them and their safety knows no bounds. I entirely feel that.

To say I would do anything for my children’s safety feels like an understatement. I go through my own personal hell every time I have one. In my worst nightmares, I am pregnant. There is almost nothing more anxiety provoking and terrifying in my world than pregnancy.

In my current therapy, we’ve been dealing with my paranoia. So much of that is around being or getting pregnant again. It sucks. I hate it. But if it happened, I would once again go through my own hell to see the beautiful little face at the end of it all. I know it doesn’t always end well, but when it does, it is worth the anguish. I would do anything for my kids, because I already stretch myself as thin as I can to bring them into this world.